last first day of school

Awake at 4 because ... No particular reason. My body clock's still pretty wrecked, I guess. But I'm not suffering for that. At least, not yet.

School has started. It's only been 2 days because NTU just self-declared school holiday on 11 August, but so far so good. I like the electives I'm taking. I have a really good feeling about their usefulness and how much I'll learn. I hope this feeling is right. The thought of learning more about something I think I might be interested in just excites me, you know. ⁺✧.(˃̶ ॣ⌣ ॣ˂̶∗̀)ɞ⁾ Haha, that sounds so corny, but it's true.

Note the 'think' and the 'might' though, because who knows how long this will last and whether it's something I really want to do in the future, right. ... I honestly don't know why I need to put two words to express uncertainty. For a person who's supposedly so assertive in real life, I sure seem like I'm not sure about many things - or you know, I just don't want to seem like I'm too sure of anything. (please refer to this: Women and the 'I Don't Know' Problem)

That aside, I know I'm probably in for Hell. ⊙﹏⊙ It's my final year, JENG JENG JENG. And I'm a terrible student. I know it. My family knows it. (but I don't think my parents will admit it lol) I try not to flaunt it too much in front of my school mates. When we get to the assignments and group projects and presentations and deadlines and submissions, confirm plus chop I kpkb; ┻━┻ミ＼（≧ロ≦＼）but till then, I'm going to keep my head in the clouds and my feet on the ground. （ｖ＾＿＾）ｖJust whack and do your best lor.

Part of me can't wait to leave all this academia stuff behind and get deep into the "practical" stuff but I know that there is a purpose for everything. What we take away from school are skills, not just knowledge, and that's what's really important. One of the things that was reaffirmed by the time I spent interning.

I also found a way around clearing the awkward 4AUs left for my UE requirement. Yay to online courses that are pass/fail (~‾⌣‾)~ Here's to hopefully that the plan actually works out and I can get that pass without much fanfare and drama. In my 15 years of formal education, I seem to run into that way more times than I would like - not something I would recommend, nuh-uh.

And lastly, FYP has been on track.. I was scared, and still sort of am, to be in a group with people I'm not really close with. And just the thought of doing a year-long project is daunting, potential people- and group dynamics-issues aside. But we're candid, we're straight-shooting; I think all our hearts (and minds) are in the right place. We're open to other's opinions. We are productive when we need to be. For all of this and more, I am eternally grateful. And I only hope we continue to stay on track and on task and just be consistent throughout the rest of the time we have together. Would that be too much to ask for?

And speaking of which- FYP group meeting in about 5 hours. We met earlier today and I was already late for that meeting, so it's probably best that I get some shuteye now.