I'd rather be flawed and be aware of my flaws than to be completely blind and in utter denial of them, which often results in defensiveness and a gazillion excuses. Amidst the hurt from being criticized for my shortcomings (can't deny that hurt, no matter how right you know the other person's criticism is), I may become antsy if only to try and deal with the hurt I am feeling, or because I am already reprimanding myself and feel like I really don't need someone else scolding me for something I'm already berating myself for (in my head, of course).
The ignorance I witness can be phenomenal, and to be honest, it is really scary. I have almost always known when I am in the wrong. Most of the time, when I am terrible, I am purposefully terrible (which may or may not be a bad thing, meh - the lesser of two evils?) but people who don't know ... Damn. Their method of rationalizing all their actions (both good and bad) must be crazy effective. /shuddersatthethought
The title of this post is a line from John Mayer's Stop This Train. I love the song, and I've always loved that line but that's where it ends. I guess you can say I'm scared of getting older (jeng jeng jeng, future) but HELL NO, I'm definitely no good at being young, going by the general actions of the younger populace in my social circles.
I'm so glad I outgrew some pretty terrible mindsets.
I'm 21 years old now - still growing, still have so much to learn.
it was over my head
I know nothing at all
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