why I am both sad and happy that things are changing

I am sad because I feel like 10 years of my life might have been for nothing.

I am happy because changes and new things means more space to grow, more things to learn and going beyond all that we already know.

I am sad because I feel that the memory of me will fade to dust and then that's it.

I am happy because I know it is time and I feel that I am being propelled forward to better things. Unknown better things, yes, but better things.

I am sad because